[July 13th, 2009 / 12:53am] my extremities of moods leave me no space to transition to and from. this job's a fucking handful and i oscillate from bliss to agony in a matter of seconds, wholly dependent on my setting and activities. this weekend as a whole was wonderful, inspiring, and !fun!, yet folded in me and bobby arguing about (not even over) the last slice of pizza. he was mostly kidding, but i was fighting back tears. and simultaneously erupting in forceful chuckles because fuck it, we were fighting over pizza. it's the new spilled milk. he became upset once realizing i was upset, and pressed me to talk about why i was upset full knowing that i hate expressing myself when i am feeling sour. before we knew it, twilight chased us as we sat on the stoop of a bolted door in the gentrified cement playground of northern liberties, cigarettes faithfully chained to our hands, our mouths struggling to compose broken sentences in our exhausted, frustrated delirium. tangentially related, lauren and i realized that we share the common pattern of bipolar friends/acquaintances consistently telling us that we are moody. this job is draining me; it's suppressing my curiosities, passions, and interests. i'm quitting once i muster up the courage. aside from compromised financial security i don't have much to lose. the time will be spent working on my photography, maybe heading back to the magazine office to do design work, reading books, flexing and curling my toes just because. hopefully the burden removed from my shoulders will lighten up a heavy heart. 0 post

[June 30th, 2009 / 2:55am] I rediscovered Photo Booth tonight, so please allow me to share these very fresh photos of me being an insomniac. I should now go to bed; I have a coffee date in approximate six and a half hours. 10 post

another aspiration [June 9th, 2009 / 2:56pm] "His incompetence at ordinary living allowed him to see it more sharply." - Leon Wieseltier on Walter Benjamin 0 post

an aspiration [May 27th, 2009 / 1:48pm] south korea? january 2010? 4 post

[May 24th, 2009 / 11:09am] && 0 post

[April 30th, 2009 / 7:44pm] ATTN: PHILADELPHIA FOLKS WHO LIKE ART/PHOTOGRAPHY if you can help me out for 1-3 hours this weekend filming photographing a project please e-mail me at hello@ofeverydaylife.org i can provide a delicious homecooked meal and my everlasting gratitude and iced tea and smiles and nice conversation 4 post

[April 22nd, 2009 / 9:43pm] My mother re: my childhood, via gchat: "i don't know how, but there were days when you came home with someone else's pants on. and when asked, you had no idea how." 5 post

friends are my favorite kind of people [April 16th, 2009 / 9:44am] My weekend. more here 2 post

weekend in oberlin [April 7th, 2009 / 8:15am] more weekend pictures at my blog. 1 post

[March 17th, 2009 / 11:09pm] reminder that i've moved my primary blog to : of everyday life. life is so tremendously busy but i want to stay still and enjoy it every once in awhile, which i've been taking the time to do. thus i am far behind on my ever-growing to-do list and i've hardly been so avoidant or intimidated by an inanimate object such as this. one of the heaviest-duty assignments of my college career is precisely what i've been working on recently, my autoethnography. it's like the lovechild of an autobiography and an ethnography, in which one reflects their life experiences (or a collection of them) as a member in a particular social group and uses them to develop a cultural critique. i submitted a hastily written first draft a week ago (i was working on it literally until ten seconds before it was due, when i printed it out and ran back into the classroom). tonight my professor told me that although it's new and rough, i've planted the seeds for a piece solid enough to be published. whoa. 6 post

[March 10th, 2009 / 12:23am] i'm not ready i'm not ready i'm not ready i'm not ready i'm not ready i'm not ready i'm not ready

[March 2nd, 2009 / 10:52pm] "her hair looks vaguely fascist." -- my good friend sydney kim 1 post

totally crushin' [February 23rd, 2009 / 9:39am] [ music | tender forever - the magic of crashing stars ] swooooooooooooooooooooooon. 0 post

nobody is around/exists [February 13th, 2009 / 12:10am] i need somebody to talk to like right this second

new blog. [January 28th, 2009 / 10:16am] i am going to gradually move away from livejournal, minus the friends-only entries. instead i have my new blog: http://ofeverydaylife.org 2 post

philadelphia. [January 26th, 2009 / 8:38pm] I just looked up from picking at my cuticles (this is the worst! habit!) and realized that I’m kind of living my dream. I’m at this beautiful, small and intimate café three streets north from my new (three-story townhouse!) home drinking the most perfect soy chai latte out of a mug that’s my favorite shade of blue. This café has recessed gallery lighting and hanging bulbs that look like minimalist flowers descending from the ceiling. Like many indoor spaces in Philadelphia, I’m coming to learn, there is an exposed brick wall that lessens the sterility within four walls. Next to me I have my camera. Next to me I have my planner that is one of the best designed items I’ve ever owned. The barista is cute and we talked about Sufjan Stevens over my order, and the music plays as if someone put my iTunes on shuffle. My home is in a wonderful, cozy neighborhood characterized by brownstones and coffee shops and bicycle shops and used bookstores. I can’t wait until spring. 10 post

[January 24th, 2009 / 1:30am] [ music | marla hansen -- shuffle your feet ] there are too many words to describe what life has been like over the past week, let alone the last month! the things and places and people that surround me are amazing and/or full of so much potential and that's exciting. i don't know when or how so many of the more long-term evolutions came to be but my god sometimes i really believe that i am the luckiest person in the world. 1 post

[January 11th, 2009 / 10:27pm] mine! 3 post

today [January 6th, 2009 / 11:29pm] my day went exactly like this: work hard, play hard, curl up in bed with a pint of raspberry sorbet. 1 post

[January 5th, 2009 / 12:15am] this too shall pass.

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